The First thoughts--Why and how of the blog

GANAPATI POOJA:



I am tensed, I am restless.....I have been asked a lot of times about having my own blog.its almost a social stigma if you dont have a blog of your own...dont have to bother if nyone is listening......you juss have an online voice.......
I still remember the first time I was asked about having a blog.....my good ol fren Subbu the geek.. asked venki the nerd....'you speak so much........why dont you write all that on blog'.
I was afraid that if I write all that I speak, it would be a written n lasting physical proof of my stupidity.
I rather let the blabber die its silent death along with people's grey cells...

so it took me 5 long years to even comprehend and appreciate the very concept of raising your voice (they do this 'raising a voice' for social causes.....I am not talking about that kinda raising voice...I am talking about physically raising voice...;-) ) in the unknown ...... and I still dont know if I have a reason now.....I need reason and logic for everything I do.

All this Started recently.I am here in the US on my project. Like a million Desi's here.not that it is my dream...but that I wanted to have a VISA stamped that I stepped on this land.But the whole problem started after I came here.
So many things that I took for granted.....I started counting them.some of the blessing I never even knew existed, or never acknowledged. I thought I sleep very often because its my nature.but I realised after coming here that getting a good night's sleep is dependent on a million things.the state of mind, the very feeling of home....I realised...contributes a lot to a peaceful sleep.

Work and office were never such a relief...I have something to do there.

The real issue begins once I come back to the Hotel room. One of the first things that I could empathise and sympathise with....after I got in to this hotel room...is the life imprisonment.

I could really understand what pain it is to be sentenced to a life time of imprisonment...AWWW, if I were a social activist, I wd rather advocate death sentence over imprisonment.In my case, I dont even get food ...I have to cook my own dinner.

SO I was searching for ways of expressing my views, spend some time and do something productive.Some of the ways ... to cook, clean n watch TV.

Cooking: Another blessing I NEVER Acknowledged.I always thought I could cook well and had a certain sense of pride that I can out do some of the new age gurls.but After I came here, I realised cooking is just not about knowing the recipe. its lot more of emotional and creative ability.and real cooking is not a fancy...cooking is if you can satisfy your hunger and your taste buds..with limited cooking resources.Cooking= making something to impress ----->Cooking = Making something to eat.the definition change was instantaneous

SO my confidence took a mighty blow when I realised I cannot cook..because essentially, there is no food processor, no masala box, no 4 burner stove and Above all, no mom to juss stay out side and watch you do it....so option one ..Gone

Cleaning, its juss a single room and a kitchen...and room service...option 2 gone

Orkut-- got so depressed that I wanted to scrap myself and reply to it.was watching all the updated pics and same ones again and again.it almost got very depressing and had to find another way.

TV was a bad option because all of them are news channels and everyone seems to be having a competition for the perfect dooms day prophecy.Everyone gives the most horrific view of the future. and only Obama seems to be having the power to 'Change'.I wonder if this guy does become the most powerful...a small typo of b replaced by s...would make such a huge irony...

SOO....somewhere in al this meloncholy of thoughts, I got this idea...of channeling my 'what ever' towards writing...and I started this blog.....

Besides...if Bacchan and other oldies can have a blog of thier own, I am a Saaftware enginier ...Its my birth right..

see I told you all this before, I talk a lot , and lot of it does not make sense and above all, no continuty of thought...

In all, the above was the reason I started this blogging..

ANd I just realised another thing...my written skills are improving.its been 3 years since I wrote anything except official mails ( 'Please find the update attached'--'Kindly Revert'- 'As per the conversation we had last evening'--OMG I never realised my writing and grammer got soooo poor...so please excuse my spellings and grammer...I will improve)

now for the name of the blog......

My inspiration for starting a blog is definitely My Friend Soumya...also happens to be my Wifey.I think she has been writing blogs from a loong time.Its so impressive and surprising that a gurl I live with, who does not speak at all at home, has such beautiful thougths running in her mind.Although marriage has robbed a lot of her creative time..she is trying to get back to her original self...check out her blog --http://www.many-questions.blogspot.com/

the most impressive part of the blog is the name.because every one knows that she asks the most painful and creative questions mankind can ever face.so the name of the blog is more than juss APT.I wanted to name my blog with one of the traits that everyone thinks I have.Then I started thinkin....

Thought 1:

ZAAPP came the reply...Iffat...and some more people at college.they really used to get annoyed with the speed and volume of my talks.I had this name of 'Punctuation guy' at college. just because I never used a full stop.

They alwyas used to say 'There is something called full stop in english language, you use it to stop a sentence.you CAN start a new sentence after that.

I had this issue from my childhood.I cannot make simple sentences.Even when I know the concept of subject object and verb..I alwyas found more complex ways of saying simple things.

Thought 2:

My favourite movie is Shrek.and I love every character in that.

there are two of my favourite dialogues in the movie.

1. Shrek says " People judge me before they even KNOW me" --Shrek, Part one

2. Donkey says " the position of the annoying talking animal is already taken" --Shrek, Part two

so came the name

" Annoying Talking Animal" and because it was already taken, I personalised it with 'ANNOYINGTALKINGANIMALVENKI"

TADA TADA...and the Hero is born


First thought..........What should I write

then i thought, as with everything I do, lets do the Ganesh pooja.......

THEN

BINGOOOOO( I told you i dont have continuity of thought)

I got my first blog.......
Ganapati pooja
Vinayaka Chavithi, Ganesh Chaturthi......Read my next blog......if you still feel like doing it